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  • In the trees (thoughts)

  • Turning the Page (thoughts)

  • Snow days (thoughts)

  • Fallow (thoughts)

  • Comet obsession (thoughts)

  • Pondering (thoughts)

  • Survivor (thoughts)

  • The day job (thoughts)

  • My art buddy (thoughts)

  • It will never happen here (thoughts)

  • Hanging out to dry (thoughts)

  • Eyebrows (thoughts)

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In the trees (thoughts)

When walking through a lush green forest, I often experience a bit of claustrophobia even though I enjoy it immensely. I’m always glad to reach a body of water or meadow so I can see further!

When I visit forested locations, I have every intention of creating installations with some of my objects. I always take a load with me in the car along with my camera on road trips. But something happens when I’m actually in the forest, and my creativity freezes. On my long drive back from Lake Champlain recently, I pondered on why this happens.

As someone who has spent the majority of my life on the high plains west of the 98th parallel where grasslands and cultivated fields dominate the landscape, I am accustomed to seeing the horizon line. I cannot see the horizon line in forests, and I can easily become disoriented. What is space? What is distance? Where is the sun? What direction am I facing? Thick forests have so much shade that it’s even hard to distinguish if the shadows are leaning north, south, east, or west. Since my work involves playing with perspective and size, the trees create a challenge for me. How can I manipulate images so that the objects I make appear different in scale than they are in reality when there are such recognizable reference points like large trees surrounding me?

I’m not really sure what the answer is. I think I’ll have to spend a good amount of time amongst trees to figure it out and see what they and the surroundings say to me. Until that time, I think for now I’ll simply enjoy walks in forests and take in the beauty around me.

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Turning the Page (thoughts)

All stories require turning the page to get to the next chapter, including mine.

I now have more time to read because I’m on to the next chapter of my life, having recently retired from my day job. (I’m currently reading about one of my favorite female artists, Louise Bourgeois, in Women’s Work: From feminine arts to feminist art by Ferren Gipson.) It’s an odd thing to not go to my former place of work at 9 a.m. every weekday. Over the years I really liked my job as the Design & Exhibitions Coordinator at the Laramie County Library in Cheyenne, Wyoming, and the people I worked with were absolutely wonderful! But all stories require chapters to end for new ones to begin, and I knew it was time for my story to focus on my studio practice.

What does my studio practice look like? That’s an interesting question, and I’m not quite sure yet! While working at the library for nearly two decades, my practice was very sporadic and cobbled together with early mornings, weekends, and vacations. I hope to get into somewhat of a routine, but I’m still adjusting to not having to set an alarm to get out of bed, so I’m allowing myself to spend time daydreaming and not living on a schedule. It’s kind of fun, and ideas for my work are starting to come more frequently. One thing I’m sure of with my studio practice is that it requires time to read about art. (My love of books and libraries stems from my earliest memories when I was a toddler, and I had the great fortune to work in the art library when I was in college.)

Aside from catching up on reading art books I’ve bought over the past several years, my first project is to get my studio organized. My studio’s in the basement, which has been my family’s repository of stuff since 2001, so the basement needs cleaned out first. Life got in the way over the years, as happens, and the basement is overflowing and disorganized. (Let’s face it, I’d also rather make something than get organized, so there’s that…) I’m trying to clean out the stuff first, which also leads me down rabbit holes of memories and some new ideas for something to make, which then distracts me from the cleaning project and I start working in my studio! Maybe my goal of having a somewhat organized basement and studio will happen someday, but more importantly I hope the trips down the rabbit holes are enjoyable and valuable to my creative life.

As happens, life again got in the way, and my retirement grand plan to get this project done by mid-April came to a halt. Now I’m working to get back on track cleaning out and organizing, but my time is my own now, and if it takes a few months to finish that project’s chapter, so be it! While I have so much in life I want to do that it might take me 40 years, most of my deadlines are self-inflicted, so I can change them if I’d like, or even totally ignore them! I’m going to allow myself the freedom to read and daydream to see what ideas come to life in this new chapter!

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Snow days (thoughts)

Snow day!!!

I love snow, so this announcement brings me a sense of joy and excitement! As a child living on the plains of Colorado it meant freedom from a day of school and a chance to play outside with my sister and neighborhood friends until I turned blue. After sledding, snowball fights, and shoveling, my mom always had hot chocolate waiting.

As an adult living on the plains of Wyoming it means a day (or more) off work. Snow days don’t quite garner the same sense of joy as they did when I was young, but the white blanket over the neighborhood instills joy over the beauty surrounding me. The world becomes hushed and still while the birds take over and dispense of the quiet.

I’ve experienced so many blizzards in my life that I’ve lost count, but a few stick in my memory like the one when I was a kid visiting relatives in Lawrence, Kansas. We got to go sledding on the campus of KU, where we had to bail out of the plastic toboggan at the base of the hill lest we slide into Potter Lake. It was a great time with my cousins, and one inadvertently kicked me in the head while bailing out. (I survived!) 

There was the blizzard in 1987 when my husband and I lived in Virginia. He had gone to the base for work, but was really late getting home. I was worried sick, but when he returned I learned that he had stopped many times on his way to help people stuck along the road, as was a fitting thing to do for a young USMC 2nd Lieutenant!

Then there was the one in 1988 in the Florida panhandle—well, it wasn’t really a blizzard to me (less than an inch fell), but to my coworkers who didn’t know how to drive in snow it was. When they asked how to drive safely on the slick roads, I cautioned them to not tailgate other cars as was the tendency of drivers there.

The 1989 Christmas Eve blizzard in Havelock, North Carolina dropped 18″ on our town near the coast. A place in the South that is prepared for hurricanes is not prepared for snow at all, let alone 5′ drifts. My southern dogs weren’t quite sure what to do with the stuff, and Louie (big black lab) sunk in a drift and struggled to get out.

We returned to Virginia in 1992 only to experience another blizzard. Louie knew what to do in snow this time and had a blast running around the neighborhood. Michaela was 4 then and had fun sledding with her bestie Erin, a California girl.

Not long after moving back to Colorado we had the deepest snow I’ve experienced and lost power for 3 days in October 1995. Around 3′ of snow fell! This time Louie couldn’t get out the back door without us digging him a path, and it got so cold in our old house that Michaela’s fish froze (RIP Skylark).

Michaela and I took a trip to New York City in December 2009 only to experience a blizzard there. Manhattan didn’t really shut down since the subway still ran, and businesses cleared the sidewalks pretty quickly. It was lovely to see the city covered in snow with Christmas lights twinkling! And I have to say, no one does a snow day like New Yorkers in Central Park! It was a party! 

Blizzards are pretty common here in Cheyenne so we tend to be prepared. We own an all-wheel drive car and  a snowblower; the city has snowplows that come out in force, and shoveling is simply winter weightlifting (that wears me out faster than it used to). Our dog Bella loves the snow—she’ll bury her head in it then let the wind blow her ears. (She was born near Rocky Mountain National Park, so it makes sense!) We’ve had many snow days in our 19 years of living here, but this storm was a record-breaker (31″) and we’ve had three snow days in a row. We’re still digging out and anticipate it will take a few more days before the streets are clear. 

After living in tornado alley while in college and hurricane country (escaping two) while my husband was in the Marine Corps, I will take blizzards in the West any day, even when the accompanying winds blow my stainless steel garden gazing ball off its stand! 

I am grateful, and acknowledge that I am very fortunate, to have had and continue to have the resources to weather blizzards and other storms in life.

 

 

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Fallow (thoughts)

Fallow fields around my rural town always captured my attention as a kid, and I remember asking my dad why some fields had crops growing in them and others were just dirt. He told me soil needed time to rest and rejuvenate, then farmers would plant seeds in the fallow fields the following year and expect good crop production.

Production drives us humans these days. We have tools to manage ourselves with any number of apps or software so as individuals or as work teams we can produce more, more, more, faster, faster, faster. The call to productivity became louder when the pandemic hit as we were to stay home and stay safe, “What are you doing with all that down time? It’s shameful to waste it! Get busy!”

Have I been productive and created lots of art? Have I wasted time? These aren’t the questions I’m asking because they don’t lead to an answer.

I made the decision to lie fallow.

Making objects and installations depletes my creative resources, and I feel drained. Then processing the raw images depletes me even more. I have to rest and rejuvenate after I’ve been productive and accomplished what I set out to do. (I had a solo exhibit last January through March, which I had deinstalled just before the world shut down.)

Resting and rejuvenating is different for everyone, and for me it doesn’t mean I haven’t created anything at all. I’ve allowed myself to simply be in the world, observe and take in my surroundings; read, try something new, indulge in watching creative TV shows, and meander down idea trails that have no specific destination. I’ve created things unrelated to my art that won’t be seen by anyone but me. My husband and I have done house and garden projects to make our home the place we want it to be. My day job as a graphic designer and exhibits supervisor requires me to be creative on deadlines (constantly productive), and I work with creative people, so my creativity hasn’t disappeared while I’ve been lying fallow.

The “normal” we humans have known has changed, and it will be different when we emerge on the other side of the COVID-19 pandemic and political upheaval of late. (I hope we eventually emerge as a more empathetic and kind species.) I’m not sure how, if, or to what extent my art work will change, but after lying fallow I’ll be ready to go where it takes me.

 

Image above: my memory of fallow fields as a digital watercolor sketch, created using Adobe Fresco (free app) with an Apple Pencil on my iPad Mini.

 

 

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Comet obsession (thoughts)

According to my family, I’ve been obsessed with NEOWISE, the comet currently zipping through our solar system. They’re right! After a failed attempted viewing outside of town at sunset, I went into my backyard at 4:00 one morning hoping to see it in the clear Wyoming sky, but couldn’t. Finally seeing NEOWISE at 9:42pm on a second evening outing didn’t end my obsession, though!

Since I don’t have the equipment to produce a stunning image like those that astrophotographers are posting, I didn’t even try to take a photo. Instead, I’ve posted an image of a scene from the Bayeux Tapestry. The comet depicted in it (Halley’s) doesn’t resemble what NEOWISE looked like to my eye, but I love the 11th century interpretation of what one looks like. I remember studying the Bayeux Tapestry in a college art history class back in the ’80s, and I also remember passing up the opportunity to view Halley’s comet through the lens of a telescope in 1986 when the astronomy department had viewing nights for students.

That’s probably why I’m obsessed — I regret not taking that opportunity to see a once-in-a-lifetime event. (I’ll be 97 if I live to see Halley’s the next time it swings by Earth in 2061. I’ll shoot for that!)

Back in the 11th century, people saw comets as harbingers of doom. Now in the 21st century, I don’t have to be like the medieval person cowering in fear (seen in the lower left of the Bayeux Tapestry image) at seeing the unknown, because I have scientific information and know comets are visitors from our universe’s past. NEOWISE last flew by Earth around 6,800 years ago! For me, to think that people so long ago in the Neolithic age may have seen what I did is mind-boggling! NEOWISE connects me to humans who lived under the same sky as me, millennia before my time, and knowing that gives me a bigger picture than my just my own place in this world.

I’ve seen NEOWISE several times, because the comet is now visible from my backyard! I’ll go out every night and gaze at the stars until I can’t see it anymore because  I’m obsessed.

 

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Pondering (thoughts)

“This is why I love shooting film…instead of looking at a picture you shot you can only think about it, until you’ve developed it.”

I’ve been pondering this tweet by Colorado photographer, Laura Cofrin. Though I don’t shoot in film anymore, I was trained in the medium and in darkroom skills, and I grew up waiting for days or even weeks for prints of family vacations to come back from the lab. We were all so excited to see them! My young self found the required patience to be excruciating.

Now my older self is much more patient. After I’ve been out in the land creating installations, I rarely look at the images until a day or two later, sometimes longer. My creativity is drained and I’m physically spent — I have no desire to immediately see what I did. It takes me a while to regain energy. Occasionally when scrolling through my Lightroom catalog, I find a few images months and years later and see them with fresh eyes. (I’ve recently been working with images of installations from a couple of years ago.)

Pondering Laura’s tweet has caused me to consider my delay in relation to my installations. Does thinking about the pictures instead of looking at them right away cause me to really see the installations instead of seeing what I wanted them to be?

Hmmmm.

Photo: Kodak Duaflex IV (circa 1960), my first camera, a hand-me-down from my parents.  

 

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Survivor (thoughts)

No, not the long-running TV series!

Five years ago, I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. It wasn’t an easy journey. The surgeries and chemotherapy kicked my butt, and I’m left with some lingering issues from the systemic platinum-based poisoning.

And now here I am! My oncologist recently whooped and cheered at my 5-year follow-up appointment — she told me I’ve graduated and gave me big hugs! Hooray!!!!

I’m a survivor!

Of course I’m elated, but the complex rollercoaster of emotions I’ve had have really surprised me. I’m in the minority of women (40%) who survive ovarian cancer past 5 years, and I’m very grateful to my team of doctors, nurses, phlebotomists, medical assistants, receptionists and cancer center volunteers. Having seen them on a regular basis since July 2014, I will miss them, especially my oncologist because she cared for me so well, advocated for me when a heart surgeon didn’t think a procedure needed to be done, gave me mental tools to get through the journey, and has always treated me like an intelligent person when answering my questions and giving me information. I’ll still see her once a year, and maybe more when we run into each other at our local Target after work, or at a garden center, or a clothing store, or at the library where I work. (Such is the nature of a small city!)

When I found out I had cancer, I didn’t really want to make the news public. I wanted to keep it close and not be defined by the disease. But then I started chemotherapy and my hair started to fall out. People would notice that I looked different, so either I controlled my story or I let others, so I told the world via a social media post.

I’ll never forget the support I received (and continue to) through the journey. Cards, calls, visits, flowers, and messages from coworkers, friends, and family near and far brought light to some dark days. I still have all the cards I received in the mail, and occasionally look at the bundled stack and feel the love all over again. Sharing the cancer adventure long-distance with a childhood friend going through hers at the same time was an incredible source of strength, and we’ve had the great joy of being able to see each other and skip down a busy D.C. street, frolicking at being alive and well!

I’ve experienced exuberant joy, and I’ve relived the deep sadness of losing my sister Lana to brain cancer several years ago and now not being able to tell her I survived. I feel guilty for surviving when she didn’t, but also very happy for my family that they didn’t have to deal with losing someone they love and that I’m still here. I’ve laughed a lot and cried a lot, sometimes over things that were totally unrelated.

Cancer changed me in many ways. I hate the fatigue of it all that keeps me from making all the art I have ideas for. Maybe the fatigue will go away, or am I just old enough now that this is where I am? I’m more vulnerable and insecure, but at the same time much tougher, and I don’t faint every time I have a blood draw like I used to!

Yes, I’m celebrating, and I want you to celebrate with me! We need to celebrate each others’ joys while on earth!

But as I celebrate I keep in mind that others are dealing with difficulties in life. Being alive is a preexisting condition, and who amongst us lives in a perfect state that doesn’t require some sort of attention now and then?

My plan is to celebrate by being kind, compassionate, and empathetic to my fellow humans. We all need it!

The image above is “87° 36′ W x 41° 53′ N no. 12,” an installation I created a month before my surgery, when we suspected I had cancer. It was a very stormy day, and the wind was so strong that I was nearly knocked off my feet. The unsettled image serendipitously captured my life at the time.

 

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The day job (thoughts)

Like many artists, I have a day job that takes me away from my studio. Mine is at a public library and the people I work with, and have worked with, are truly amazing. As a team we bring information, learning, culture, fun and life to our community.

Much of my day consists of collaborating and working with my colleagues and community partners. (The rest of it is spent in front of a screen with the Adobe Creative Cloud on a good day, with Excel on a not-so-good one!) There are other artists, musicians, and writers in the organization and like me are at their day jobs. And of course, there are the librarians. If you don’t get to count a librarian among your friends, I’m sad for you! Don’t pay attention to the old stereotypes of shushing and hair buns. No, the librarians I work with are some badass, curious, fun, and innovative people!

In my position I coordinate traveling and local exhibits that run the gamut of subject matter. We host art exhibits ranging from elementary school work to some of the finest contemporary book art in the world; we have history exhibits, quilt exhibits, exhibits of quirky collections (like vintage aprons, and Scrabble® games), traveling Smithsonian exhibits, and huge traveling interactive exhibits that turn the library into a science museum. (The photo above is of my fingers on the plasmasphere that came with one such exhibit, Discover Space.) I’ve had the opportunity to meet some distinguished authors and scholars, and to work with multi-talented professionals who are the lone staff members at museums in small Wyoming towns. Each project inspires me at work and as an artist. Sometimes the projects are so all-consuming that they take over my life (Discover Space) and my off-time creative work takes a back seat for a period. But through it all I learn something I didn’t know before, and it adds to the reservoir of information I get to draw from while working in my studio and at the library.

The highlight of my year in is the annual book arts exhibit we established at the library a few years ago. I work with a curator to put together a themed exhibit of 15-20 artists working in mediums or techniques traditionally used in handcrafted books, or using books themselves. Each year I’m amazed at the artists who exhibit and the ways they interpret the theme to create works of art. The pieces range from codex forms to sculptures that make library visitors scratch their heads and wonder how that thing is a book. (I find it very satisfying when people ask questions!) The creativity and depth of thought dig deep into my soul. Each day I’m at work during the exhibit I check on the art to make sure all is well, and along with the process of creating statement labels and the exhibit catalog, I get to know the pieces pretty intimately. Even though I’ve never met many of the artists in person, I also feel like I get to know the group quite well through their work and words. (I hope when/if I do get to meet them, I don’t weird them out by seeming too familiar!)

One of my former colleagues gave me a poster with a quote by Amy Poehler that rings very true: “Find a group of people who challenge and inspire you, spend a lot of time with them, and it will change your life.” My groups challenge and inspire me every day, and my library group has had my back and held my hand, both at work and away, through some really difficult times in life. We’ve cried tears of sorrow together, and tears of joy while jumping up and down in celebration.

Though there are days I’d really like to stay in my studio and not come out for hours instead of going to my day job, it has changed my life. And I wouldn’t want it any other way.

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My art buddy (thoughts)

Michaela has been my art buddy since she was a baby. I would sit at the kitchen table painting, she would sit in her high chair making marks with her crayons, and we would have conversations. (I’m not sure what we discussed, since I was not able to understand her language at the time!) When she was 4, Fred and I took her with us to the Smithsonian Craft Show in DC, an exhibit and sale of museum-quality original textiles, ceramics, woodworking, metalsmithing, jewelry and more. While there, I instructed her to keep her hands to herself and not touch anything. She obeyed until an accomplished basketmaker I admired, Kari Lonning, handed her a double-walled basket with marbles inside! I protested, but Kari was so kind and seemed to take joy in seeing a little girl light up with delight at the sounds and textures in her hands. (I really wish I had purchased the piece!)

Sometimes life operates in a circular fashion, and now Michaela has returned to DC for a year as a Smithsonian fellow! She’s a Ph.D. candidate in Art History at the University of Toronto and is at the Smithsonian American Art Museum working specifically on the chapter in her dissertation that addresses depictions of land use in New Deal-era U.S. Post Office murals. (There are several in Wyoming and Northern Colorado that she has visited.) And she’s writing, writing, writing…

As a parent, it is very exciting to see your offspring thriving in their chosen field, especially when they’ve been headed that way from an early age. I remember having a conversation with her when she was 7 or 8 after she asked, “What is college?” In my response I told her what professors do, and she told me she wanted to be a professor when she grew up. She’s on her way!

Michaela has introduced me to the work of artists I didn’t know about, like Keith Arnatt and Simone Jones, took our family on our first pilgrimage to the Spiral Jetty, and suggested we go to art exhibits and lectures that have had profound influences on my work. Once we went to see an exhibit on the grounds of the Denver Botanic Gardens, but were most moved by the exhibit at the indoor gallery we didn’t know was there. Will Wilson’s work grabbed both of us. Never before had I been so stunned by photography, and Michaela has curated his work in a show and written about it.

Now when we sit at the kitchen table together she recommends reading materials to me, and I share directions I’m going artistically. We discuss ideas, art, history, books, and issues of the day. (But it’s not all serious — we also discuss the cultural significance of TV comedies and how much we enjoy watching them. That leads to binge-watching Parks and Recreation, our favorite, and lots of laughing.) We’ve come a long way from our early days at the kitchen table.

Snapshot above is in front of my work on exhibit at the Nicolaysen Art Museum in Casper, WY.

 

 

 

 

 

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It will never happen here (thoughts)

But it has. Yesterday in Charlottesville, VA, men carried Nazi flags at a white supremacist rally. The sight made me physically ill.

Throughout my life I’ve heard hubristic Americans condemn Germans for not standing up to the Nazis or stopping them. Comments like “I would’ve stood up to them!” and “It will never happen here” follow. Here’s the chance to stand up.

My father is German. He was a boy living in a small town in Germany during WWII. My dad didn’t speak German at home when I was growing up, and he worked to lose his accent so no one would know his heritage unless he told them. We didn’t celebrate anything German. Why would we when our heritage included the Holocaust? (I’m perplexed as to why Southerners want to fly the confederate flag and celebrate a heritage that includes slavery — it doesn’t make sense to me.) He came to the U.S. as soon as he could after the war and became a citizen.

In college I studied German language and history. My art history focus was on early 20th century German Expressionism. I needed to learn about the time period from the historical standpoint. I am not an expert, but I know enough to be aware.

My husband’s uncle fought in WWII to defeat the Nazis. I’m incredibly thankful for all veterans who fought to defeat the hateful regime. I owe my life to them because had they not defeated Hitler and freed Europe, my dad wouldn’t have become a U.S. citizen and I wouldn’t be here.

When I saw the current president descend his golden escalator on live TV to announce his candidacy, his words made me shudder and punched me in the gut. They had shades of what I’d read in textbooks and seen in film clips of Hitler in my German history classes.

So now I’m wondering how do I, as a lone individual in Wyoming, with my family heritage, respond to images of men proudly flying Nazi flags? I’m figuring that out. I tend to refrain from conflict. I’m a private, peace-loving person, but I won’t stick my head in the sand. I will love my neighbor (meaning all people) as myself. I refuse to give in to hate lest I become just like the men from around the country who gathered in Charlottesville, and I refuse to think that it won’t happen here, because it has.

 

 

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Hanging out to dry (thoughts)

With an exhibit coming up, I’ve been running prints of images of my ephemeral installations, and here they hang from good old-fashioned wood clothes pins for the ink to dry.

Memories of the hours I spent in the KU art department’s photography studio came flooding back as I hung them. I was out of my comfort zone there — my zone was the clay studio. I found that my hands were not very dextrous in the pitch black as I attempted to roll the Tri-X Pan black and white film from the canister to the developing reel. Many rolls of film, and the images impressed on them, were ruined due to my inability to reliably complete this unforgiving step with perfection. Though I was attracted to the abstract patterns created by the film sticking to itself during development, my professor informed me those weren’t to be printed, EVER. (I’m very tempted to hunt for these, I probably have them somewhere, and print them just because I CAN.)

But the few deemed printable allowed me to experience the magic of watching a print come to life under the glow of the safety light. Swishing the paper lightly — back and forth, back and forth in the developer then in the stop-bath — and watching the image gradually emerge, gave me a sense of wonder.

After college, I used my Canon AE-1 (which I still have) primarily to take slides of my art work, taking advantage of the pro labs to develop my film, and I didn’t pursue photography as an art form.

Once digital cameras became affordable, I purchased a small one made by Hewlett-Packard and learned how to use a computer with a lens. Digital developing certainly doesn’t have the same risk as film, but the reward of watching the image come to life is lost. To me, processing raw images in Lightroom just doesn’t hold the wonder. But I’m very thankful I don’t have to perform any step in the process in the absence of light!

The prints of my ephemeral installations aren’t about the process of photography or the photograph as the object (read my full statement here), they are about the wonder of the installation experience, taking me back in time and place and giving viewers a glimpse of those moments.

 

 

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Eyebrows (thoughts)

Artists* = eyebrows. They don’t appear to be essential to life, maybe even superfluous, right?

Wrong. Going through chemo, my eyebrows got really thin, and I missed them! Why? Sweat found its way into my eyes and I couldn’t see clearly.

These hairy things above my eyes help me see. Sometimes I like what I see, sometimes I don’t. Sometimes I understand what I see, sometimes I’m confused. Sometimes I know what I see, sometimes I learn something new. Sometimes what I see is familiar, sometimes I’m taken out of my comfort zone.

So how are artists like eyebrows? The arts help us view the world more clearly by exposing us to experiences and viewpoints outside of our own. I’m a white woman living in Wyoming. I have no idea what it is like to be a person of color living in Chicago or to be a Native American living on the Wind River Reservation in my home state. Those are not my experiences, but the arts give me insight into them. Art, literature, music, and films have revealed biases I had, and made me see the log in my own eye, to frame it Biblically.

I regularly consider my role as an artist in society, and like many other artists have been doing so even more lately. (I’ve been contemplating, writing and editing this post for a few months.) People have a variety of opinions on what artists’ roles should be, from the premise that art should be political to the premise that art should only produce representational beauty and good feelings. When it comes to art, people like what they know, while confidently stating “I know what I like,” and base their determination on artists’ roles on their own biases.

The fact is, artists are individual human beings and what we do varies vastly. We each determine what our purpose is, because being an artist doesn’t involve having a boss who tells you what to do. People may not always understand what I create, or like or understand it with a cursory glance. If you don’t get it, ask yourself why. Read statements, go to exhibits at museums, galleries, art centers, libraries, and coffee shops.

Ask questions.

Engage in dialogue.

Listen.

Over the past year, several famous creative people have died. We grieved their loss as if we knew them personally, even though we didn’t. We knew them because of the art they created. We’ll never hear new music by Prince again. Carrie Fischer won’t take us to a galaxy far, far away in a new film, or make us laugh anew with her sharp take on life.

Yeah, we miss our eyebrows when they’re gone.

 

 

*This includes all creatives: musicians, writers, actors, etc.

For further reading on the role of the artist, I recommend this thoughtful piece, a writer’s discussion with himself on his role.

Image above: detail of Frida Kahlo’s Self-portrait with monkeys, 1943.

 

 

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